I'm so grateful to be one week away from the third trimester. I know I've talked a lot about how it's hard to live my life in these three week increments of uncertainty about how our baby is doing, but I feel like Heavenly Father is blessing us that the time really does seem to be moving fast. I'm already 27 weeks there. It's just insane.
I've been thinking a lot this week about the baby and how uncertain everything is right now. Right now we're waiting until our next appointment where we will find out if our baby's brain is fully divided in two halves or not. If the baby's brain is not in two complete halves, there is a 1 in 10,000 chance that the baby will make it to full term. If the baby makes it to the delivery room, there is a 50% chance of her living to 1 year, and a 15% chance of her making it to age 10. All crazy numbers to be thinking about while waiting for an ultrasound to happen and predict outcomes for you. One thing that's been amazing though is how much this baby kicks. I swear when I was pregnant with Jay he never moved as much as this baby does. She is letting us know that she is here, she is living, and that she's not going anywhere. Every time I feel her kick it's a reminder of the huge miracle going on in my body right now.
If our baby does have holoprosencephaly (incomplete division of the brain), the outcome isn't good. Before we knew about this diagnosis, and thought we were just dealing with mild ventriculomegaly (enlarged brain ventricles), we were offered the option to terminate the pregnancy. Obviously we declined since I'm still pregnant. The crazy thing is that our baby is full of life right now. She is moving and breathing, and living. I would never end that. The longer she is inside of me, it seems to be the better. We have no clue what this is all going to amount to once she's born, but while she is in me, she's living and continuing to grow and thrive as best she can.
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How far along? 27 Weeks
How big is baby? The size of a head of cauliflower
Total weight gain? 24lbs
Best moment this week? Cooler weather!
Food cravings? Anything sweet.
Food aversions? Anything heartburn inducing
Symptoms? Heartburn, hot flashes, dizziness, I've been a little bit of a mess with the hot weather.
Next appointment? May 30th