I've sat down to my computer many times trying to capture my thoughts on this Christmas season, and the right words never truly seemed to come to mind, but I figured documenting something is always better than nothing. This year has been amazing. The many miracles that our small family has seen in a short 365 days truly blows me away. My heart swells when I consider all the different roads, and outcomes that this year could have taken, and yet it feels like the path we were given for the year has been the best case scenario we could have asked for.
The longer that I'm a parent, the more strongly I feel connected to our Savior. I feel like that last four years have really made His life, mission, and sacrifice a more tangible experience for me. As we go through our trials, tribulations, and the tasks of the day-to-day, it's easier to see how it's all possible because of Him. I feel like my emotions have been really sensitive this last month as we've drawn closer to Christmas. I feel moments of both extreme happiness, and extreme sadness.
I feel so happy and blessed to have two healthy children tucked snug in their beds, to have a roof over our head, for my husband and I to both be gainfully employed, and for us to both love the careers we've chosen for ourselves. I feel so blessed to have this blog, not only for the creative outlet the it has allotted to me, but for the financial blessing it's been in our life this year. The fact that it's shelled out $5,000 to cover medical bills for Em, $2,000 to pay gov't taxes, and fees, and another $6,000 for a down payment for our future home, it's amazing. We could not get by each month, and have savings with just Derek's income alone. There have been scary moments where we just didn't know where money was going to come from, and this blog has proven to be a blessing to us many times.
And with that, I know that none of that would be possible if it wasn't for you, the reader. So wherever you are this evening, thank you. Thank you for reading this blog, supporting the sponsors who've advertised over here, thank you for following along on Em's journey. Thank you for your prayers, and thinking of us. I know that I wouldn't have any of this if it wasn't for you, so thank you. I try to give back to you guys through self-sponsored giveaways as much as possible, and I hope you appreciate that. It's a small way that I can give back to you guys, and I know it's not always much, but I hope you know how truly grateful we are for each one of you.
On another note, I feel so much sorrow for so many people this holiday season. We've had friends who have lost siblings, friends with babies in need of expensive, life threatening medical procedures... There is war, famine, terrorism, all of it is so scary. The attacks in Paris really hit close to home for us this year, and it's brought out fear, anxiety, and helplessness within myself. Those kind of things can happen anywhere, and at anytime, and knowing that it could easily have been me and my family in that situation makes me scared. The one thing that I find comforting though is the events that always take place after something terrible. Whether it be a family getting bad news about their baby, or a terrorist attack, people always rally together. My heart felt strengthened after watching the entire world rally together after the attacks in Paris. Or just last week when our friend's baby needed a craintonomy and within 24 hours their Go Fund Me account had more than surpassed it's fundraising goal of $7,500. It constantly reminds me that there is more good in the world than evil, and that eventually, the good will always win.
Wherever you are this holiday season, I hope you're able to reflect on the life of our Savior. I hope you're able to allow his love, and spirit to enter your heart, and home, and fill you with joy, as He has done for us. I hope you know how much you're loved by Him, and by us. Merry Christmas from our family, to yours.