Monday, October 20, 2014

Two Months Post Miracle

I used to think of God as this person who sat up in the clouds and with a point of a finger he could zap anyone he pleases with the trial of his choice. The entire time I was pregnant with Kinsley I never really thought "why me?, or why us?", I just figured that this was just some crazy hard trial that God thought that we needed to go through, and that it was going to have a really cruddy ending but we would somehow come out stronger in the end, and that we would somehow manage to cope with losing a child. 

But then Kinsley was born. And she was perfectly fine, and still is. And to this day I really can't get over it. Every time people see us they keep reminding us of how much a miracle she is. Don't get me wrong I 100% know that Kinsley's life, and her health are one ginormous miracle. But with that has come a lot of guilt. 

I'm a member of a Facebook group called, "Parent's for Hope" which is essentially an online support group for families with children who suffer from any of the four forms of Holoprosencephaly. Almost daily there is someone on there talking about how their child is on feeding tubes, or breathing machines, families whose children have severe cleft pallets, single nostril noses, and sometimes just one eyeball in the middle of their head instead of two. When you have a condition that effects the mid-line of your brain, it basically has a good shot at effecting the symmetry of your entire body and all its organs, and yet Kinsley has escaped unscathed. There are also people who like us, found out prenatally about the diagnosis and now have the rest of their pregnancy to worry about what their lives are going to be like, post birth. And almost weekly there is someone on there who talks about how they've lost their child, or how they're getting close to that point. 

I feel guilty that so many people going through this have it so much worse than we do. Through this I think the biggest thing that we've learned is that God truly does hear our prayers, and that he is merciful. As imperfect as Derek and I are, He still heard our prayers, and blessed us with this healthy little girl. We will never stop being grateful for that. We'll probably never fully understand why He chose us to be the ones with the healthy child. Maybe He needed to show not only us, but our family and friends too that He works miracles, and I'm here to say that He does! I hope that we can always live our lives in a way that keeps us worthy of this miracle that we've been given since that's the only way that you can really ever show gratitude to Heavenly Father- by being obedient. 

^ Remember when I chopped up Kyle's binkies? Nap time was rough that day so I ran to the store and bought a new one before bedtime... Luckily he knows he only gets them in his crib now, so at least we've cut back on the usage (#imawimp)

Things to know about Kinsley at two months:
  • Full nights of sleep aren't as consistent as we thought they would be... but we did get 5 nights in a row last week!
  • Kyle loves playing with her in his crib in the morning and after nap time
  • She weighs 10lbs 13oz and is 22 3/4 in
  • She doesn't fit in newborn clothes, but we make it work anyways
  • She has started laughing, or at least making happy noises
  • We can pretty much get her to smile on demand
  • Her hair that's growing back is coming in brown- so I think we're only getting one blonde baby
  • Her nighttime tantrums are easing up, so we're all super grateful for that
  • I officially put both kids to bed last night without help from Derek (#winning)

Friday, October 17, 2014

Derek Turns 26

Yesterday was Derek's birthday! It's strange to think he's that old (read: I know 26 is not old), but mainly it's strange to think that we met when he was 21, and now 4 1/2 years have flown by. We spent the night celebrating when he got home from work with his favorite dinner: Ham, green beans, and funeral potatoes. I made a delicious cake, we opened presents, and then sent the kids off to bed while we enjoyed Facetiming with family and watching Harry Potter. Side note- has anyone else noticed that ABC family is basically the Harry Potter channel?

This year for Derek's birthday he got a new hair trimmer since the one from his mission was on it's way out. I also got him some Jello Jigglers molds since he's been asking for them almost monthly since we've been married. He was also gifted some awesome emergency preparedness things from his parents, and the new X-men movie! Speaking of emergency prepardness... We also bought three of these 30-day supply buckets from Sam's Club yesterday and I'm pretty excited for them to get here.

^ this is what happens when you go to take a picture of the cake and your two year old gives a swift 360 to the cake stand... I almost had a heart attack!

Happy birthday Derek, I love you xoxo.

Sunday, October 12, 2014

Phillips Farm Cary, NC

Oh hey blogging world! I feel like it's been so long since I've written anything... mainly because I haven't. I wrote a bunch of posts a few weeks ago and then scheduled them out to last a while, and haven't really done anything since. The truth is, I've sat down about 10 different times to try and write a post and then wound up never posting anything. I've wanted to say how we've all been a little tired. How we were on this energy high for about 6 weeks after bringing home Kinsley, because there's nothing better or more exciting then bringing a baby home from the hospital that you didn't think was going to come home. And then reality and a bad case of colic sunk in, and we've pretty much been tired zombies for the last couple weeks. That, and Derek brought home a cold that had the two of us sleeping on the couch for a few days so we wouldn't get Kinsley sick. 

This weekend however, I decided that we (I), needed to step out of the being too sick, too tired, too overwhelmed to do anything kick that I was on and forced us all out of the house to the pumpkin patch! Luckily it was only a mile from our house or else I don't think we would have gone. It's seriously so hard for me to get two little ones out the door. Maybe I make it harder than it has to be but for that reason we haven't done anything exciting in a long time.

The pumpkin patch was a well needed outing. Kyle loved sitting on the big tractors and machines that they had. There was a huge slide that he got to go down, a train ride through the corn maze, footballs to throw, goats to pet... Oh the Goats! That might have been Kyle's favorite part. I was afraid he was going to cry when he saw them, but he put his hand out and they would lick his fingers, and then he would laugh so hard! He thought it was the greatest ever! We surprisingly never picked pumpkins... cause who does that at a pumpkin patch?

Monday, October 6, 2014

Chocolate and Pumpkin Granola Bark

I'm surprised that this is the first pumpkin recipe of the season to make it's way onto the blog, and it doesn't involve any pumpkin puree. Weird stuff, I know. I made this snack a couple weekends ago and was perfectly content to munch on it throughout the week. Derek was a pretty big fan of it too which means I had to hide a few pieces in the back of the freezer. All moms do that with their chocolate right?

8oz bittersweet chocolate, finely chopped
1/2 cup pumpkin granola
1/4 cup craisins
1/4 cup slivered almonds

Line bottom and sides of an 8x8 baking pan with foil.

Place chocolate in a microwave safe bowl and heat in 30 second increments, stirring in-between, until melted.

Spread chocolate in an even layer in pan. Quickly sprinkle with craisins, granola, and almonds. Press toppings gently into chocolate to make sure they stick.

Refrigerate bark until solid, about an hour and a half. Break into pieces and store in an airtight container in the refrigerator for up to one week.

Thursday, October 2, 2014

Sausage and Hash Skillet

Oh hey there... Me again... Just showing you yet again, another one of the many skillet meals we've had lately. These are seriously becoming my favorite meals. They're easy, fast, and all inclusive. Which is perfect for when you need to make a meal fast, and you have a newborn in the house. Also I was looking at the last few recipes that I posted, and they all have this dish towel, and this pot. I promise I do have more than one dish towel... But I really do love, and use this pot daily. 

3 russet potatoes
1 14oz package of turkey kielbasa cut into 1/4in rounds
1 green bell pepper, diced
1 orange bell pepper, diced
1 yellow onion, diced
olive oil

Heat two tablespoons of olive oil in a large skillet over medium high heat. Sprinkle potatoes with salt and pepper and cook for 5 minutes, and then add the bell peppers, and onions, and then stir and cover. Let cook for an additional 3 minutes, and then add the sausage. Stir and cover and cook for another 5 minutes or until sausage is hot, stirring occasionally. Then serve. 
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